8.27.2017

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This is the first weekend I’ve taken multiple PTs. I feel good.

PT 37 this morning. Used 52.4 (RC) as an experimental section. Went -0 on that 🙂

The only LR question I missed this PT was 37.4.17, a flaw question. 7sage Analytics categorizes it as a 5/5 in terms of difficulty. I dunno. I guess. I don’t understand why my answer choice (B) is wrong–gonna have to see if anyone over at Manhattan Prep knows what’s going on. Sucks to miss a flaw.

Still, another 178. Yeeeeeeee


I needtuh restring ma geetah. first need to get wirecutters. but no money and also no realistic way to get to store as long as Harvey’s outside ragin’.

so i guess ill just keep sittin here w/ me n mine

asajoidsjfo (8.26.2017)

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Rawr. 177 on PT 38. This result is in line with the last two weekends’ scores and convinces me that they weren’t flukes–unlike PTs 77 and 79, I’d never seen PT38 before and still did well.

That was an incredibly difficult RC (#fuckintentionalforestclearingsbynativeamericans); I didn’t get to the last two questions in time. Still managed a -5. Meh.

FWIW, I went -1 on my experimental RC section, PT57.4.

Not much I want to say. Think I’m ready for September.

 

A. Fleshbag’s Redress of Grievances (8.19.2017)

Took PT79 this morning. Those of you familiar with both the LSAT and my history (I don’t imagine there are many of you, but hey) will know that PT79 is both last September’s test and the last administered test for which I sat.

Did well–178–indicating that last weekend’s 178 wasn’t a fluke and that I’m getting pretty fucking good at this test. Yet I would be lying if I said that heading into things I wasn’t anxious about underperforming (after such a high peak last weekend, the pressure to do exceptionally well was palpable). The truth of the matter is that this test is difficult and I’m still starved for time on RC sometimes and I’m still misreading question stems and I rarely feel good about my sections.

Still, I must be doing something right. Two back-to-back 178s: feelsgoodman.

Section 1: RC (Experimental, PT 27.4)

I’ve never done an RC as a warm-up/experimental section and for that reason decided to throw in an old RC on this test. I need to get better at RC–obviously, the only way to do this is by doing RC. So. Yeah. Went -3. Missed one question in the second passage (about volcanoes–the question specifically asked to draw an analogy), which I had circled for BR, and two questions in the last passage (about movies and celebrity culture, of all things) which I had not circled.

Not too much to say. Not sure I would’ve done better with 5/10/15 more minutes. -3 is fine.

Section 2: LR (-0)

Managed to squeak out a -0 on the first section of the actual test. There were only 2 questions I circled for blind review (#10 and #17) and I had enough time after completing the section to review each one for a bit before 35-mins was up. Sweg.

Section 3: RC (-2)

Came in at a solid -2 on this section. Went right up to the buzzer but I was able to fly through the last 5 questions. The first passage was comparative reading, which threw me off a bit, but it was also the easiest (read: least obscure) passage of the section. Spent more time than I would’ve liked on passage #2 and still missed a question (#9).

Section 4: LG (-0)

I knew that game 4–the infamous ‘virus’ game–was going to be highly unusual (I was exposed to it a year ago) but I didn’t remember anything specific about it. Still kind of kicked my ass. The other three games were your standard linear/grouping variety, though, and I was able to breeze through them and leave myself enough time to play around with the fourth game. Wasn’t completely sure about some of my answers to the last few questions when time was called–I didn’t have enough time to double check.

Could’ve easily gone -1/-2.

Section 5: LR (-2)

Missed #19 and #21. Feelsbadman. Pretty sure that #19 is a question I missed last September, too (side note: WHY SO MANY FUCKING QUESTIONS ABOUT LICHENS AND WHAT EVEN IS A LICHEN AND WHY DO WE HAVE TO TALK ABOUT NEANDERTHALS AND THEIR DAMN LICHENS ALL THE DAMN TIME><<??). It was a weaken question that had to do with–yes–lichens.

Upon being given the correct answer, I understand what’s going on with this question: the archaeologist is concluding the N smoke meat because L are found in N fireplaces and L fires produce way more smoke than heat or light. In short, she’s concluding from a set of facts about a thing that that thing had one particular use. Her argument would be weakened if it were true that there was reason to believe N used L for a completely different reason consistent with the facts she sites, for example if N used L for fires not because they wanted to smoke meats, but because it was the best damn thing they had for fire. This is what B is getting at–no plants that could be burned more effectively to produce heat or light were available 60,000 years ago.

But I didn’t get that initially–I didn’t get that even on BR. Fucking lichens.

#21 is a necessary assumption question unique for the fact that it’s a NA about an argument from analogy. I still don’t really understand why the answer is (C) and not (A).

I had both #19 and #21 circled for BR (which is a good sign–if you’re getting any questions wrong, you want them to be those questions for which during your timed attempt you doubted your answer choice). But I didn’t change either of my answers for them. Boo.


 

I probably won’t get a 178 come test day, but who knows? It’s possible.

In any case, I’m happy with how things went today.

Satanic Panic in the Attic (8.18.2017)

The LR from the yellow 10 Official… book has me chewing through Ticonderoga #2s like some kind of woodchuck on meth. Been doing at least one section from this book every night for the past week and my (LR) scores are more volatile than ever. I went -1, -5, -0, -2, -2, -4, -1. Less than one month out from test day, this is—how to say?–unnerving.

Trying not to freak out though because last night I had a solid performance. Went -1 on 23.2 (LR) and -3 on 23.4 (RC). 23 is one of the most difficult tests ever administered; its curve is -16. (The test is so difficult that one can miss 4 questions and still get a perfect score (180)). For meaningless comparison in internet micropenis measuments, Kurt went -6 on the LR and -4 on the RC.

I missed 2 questions in the first passage of RC because I genuinely misread question stems. Sucks dumb nuts that I’m still making DUMBNUTS mistakes; doesn’t suck dumb nuts that without DUMBNUTS mistakes I’d have gotten a -1 on the RC of a test w/ a -16 curve.

The general h0-ness of the LSAT and my utter inability to expound upon this statement any further.

The frequency of Aldous Huxley’s use of the adjectives ‘pneumatic’ and ‘indefatigable’ in Brave New World.

Slight heart burn from a shitty Taco Cabana taco.

The almost sexual gratification of being able to breathe out of my left nostril.


Less than 1 month to go. Ho ho h000. Feeling fine. Kind of. Dreaming (literally dreaming, it’s almost laughable and kind of cute) of a 180. Expecting a 165. Won’t be satisfied with anything less than 173.

Hope all these years of informal Satan worship pay off on test day.

DARK LORD, if you’re reading this, lend me your diabolical powers! Assume my body and mind. Come forth and seize upon this test as a lion upon an infant lamb. With my body as a vessel may you ravage the logical!

178! (8.12.2017)

Blergh. Took and did way better than I expected on PT 77. Went -4 overall. Comes out to a 178. So close to that 180 ~_~

Sweated sweat in the summer sun from 8:30-9:30 this morning on the tennis court. Played bad felt good.

Showered good felt good.

Sat down and took PT77: good luck, kid–you’ll need it.

Section 1: Experimental LG (-0)

Used the games section from a fresh PT 74. -0. If I had gotten anything lower (higher?) it would’ve been concerning considering I also went -0 on another copy of PT 74 over 1 & 1/2 months ago.

Section 2: RC. (-2)

Not my best RC score ever but damn good. My goal going into this section was to get through all the questions in time, which I managed to do. I’ve written a fair bit this summer about confidence w/r/t answer choices and intuition and was actively implementing my strategy of ‘trust yrself’ during this section–you (I?) almost have to to complete RC in time. More than just confidence though, I think I can contribute the low (high?) RC score to the way I was consciously reading for structure. Often details aren’t as important as the structure of the argument (especially considering the fact that if you [I?] have a solid grasp of how the paragraphs function you spend less time looking details when you need them for a specific answer).

Section 3: LR (-1)

Ahahah I don’t know how I managed a -1 on this section. Section got off to a rough start; I spent about 3 minutes alone on question #3 (fuck honeybees). I didn’t have much trouble later on, but I figured I would at least miss 1 or 2 random questions in the teens/twenties because of a reading mistake. This happens on most LR sections and I’ve just come to accept it. Weirdly (luckily?), I didn’t make any reading errors and the only question I missed was #10, which was one of those ancient prompts that in PTs 70+ have come into vogue where the answer choices are all questions.

The question stem is literally ‘The answer to which one of the following questions would most help in evaluating the argument above?’ Kind of sucks to miss these–seems like they should be easy. I think I underestimated this question and, since I was already lagging behind my usual pace, wanted to move on. Just have to remember on these types of questions to really go back to the stimulus and piece together the argument. What is conclusion? What are premises? Take the 30 seconds to go back. Take the 5 seconds for a breath.

Still, -1 on this section after feeling uncertain is fine by me.

Section 4: LG (-0)

Not much to say here. There’s an uberweird game about job interviews but the rest of the games are so simple that I had more than enough time for this section.

Section 5: LR (-1)

Felt a lot better about this section than the first LR section. Whereas the first LR section felt like a -3 upon completion, this one felt like a -1. There wasn’t one question in particular I was stumped on–although I did have a number of them circled for BR. The only question I missed was the last one of the test, #26. Was a tricky necessary assumption, I was down to a 50/50 between (C) and (E) and ended up guessing wrong.

But I shouldn’t ever have to guess. That’s one reason I like this test so much. No matter how complex the stimulus may be, for every question there is one answer choice that’s 100% correct and four answer choices that are 0% correct. Gonna see what LSAT Hacks and the kids on Manhattan Prep have to say about why (C) is wrong.


I would be more satisfied with my results today if it weren’t for the fact that I’ve taken this test before. It was actually the first test I sat in on–way back in December 2015. While I don’t remember anything from it (except vaguely the weird game), I’ve seen all of this test before. That could provide one explanation for why I did so well on RC–I’ve read those prompts before.

It might be true. Nevertheless, that was nearly two years ago. And I was on so much Vyvanse back then, and smoking so much weed during months/weeks/days leading up to the test. 95% this test felt new. Blergh.

I guess all we can definitively say is it’s hard to measure how much of an effect seeing this material once, 20 months ago, had on my performance today. Was it 1 point? 5? 10?

I scored a 165 on that day in December. I remember coming out of the testing center on Academy and walking home and almost crying because I knew–I just knew–I underperformed. My mom and sister came to visit me and I was a dick to them (being a dick is one of the main side effects, and for a lot of people one of the main appeals, of Vyvanse).

Immediately after (and maybe even during) the test, it began to dawn on me: some deeper truth about life and me and humanity (but mostly just about me). The truth: I could do so much better than I just did. I could be better than I am. It came to me as anger and self-hatred and outrage, and deep deep regret: I am not what I want to be

and but maybe I could be.

And maybe I already knew this truth, maybe I had learned it a thousand times, but maybe it kept getting lost somewhere in the smoke and endless beer piss.

I wanted to score a lot higher on that day because I knew I was capable of scoring a lot higher. Today I scored a 178. Nlergh.

yes it’s all been done before and other people can write better than you and shit is cliche–and yet but what

Blergh. Feeling kinda down way down in the dumpster like really fuckin down there like beneath all the dripping diarrhea of weekold trash and not sure why. Maybe the -5 on yesterday’s LR section, maybe spending too much time on twitter, maybe just bored at work.

??.

Got to get my spit together for Peace Corps clearance. Need prints of these fingers.

need something other than this Coke Zero. Feel strange when my 30 y.o. coworkers start talking about partying on a Tuesday night and going to Colorado to smoke the weekend away. Feel strange when I realize I’m the only one who feels strange about such conversations taking place. These people all seem so…unaffected….

and mirthful

how

it was strange to read the cover story of the Economist’s 1843 Magazine. Micro-dosing and creativity. Admittedly always wanted to microdose lsd. Not sure that it increases creativity and have cried a lot on lsd and but still so why the desire?…

Reading brave new world (finally) after getting an A in Modern European Intellectual History freshman year without reading it though reading it was required. required for what exactly. eudaimonia always again eudaimonia and wonder: how prof. bernstein is doing he really liked my essay on hegel.

feeling shit about skeezing my way through college with vyvanse and unreality and literally ingesting soma daily sometimes often more than daily–well not literally soma–but literally it’s the same thing (KIND OF haha??) and now i want to be pure i will be pure like that one bright eyes song

except maybe microdosing lsd one day

silly goal little idealist cute kid cute idealism

been listening to some old ones

Maybe spending too much time reading Top-Law-Schools forums reading posts of kids that got 4.0s in UG reading stories of their incredible prestigious amazing accomplishments and can’t help thinking I really screwed the pooch man I really could’ve I really could’ve I really could’ve been… everything

And yet but think in some very real sense what I have overcome

cannot be denied and the camus quote about the invincible summer and yeah yeah–yes, it’s all been done before and other people can write better than you and shit is cliche and feeling is cliche especially existential feeling oh please and the truth is that what you have to say is not profound in the least–and yet but what?

a pause and a breath

that ineffable peace escaping (returning…)

silly blog cute blog (SHUT THE FUCK UP haha)

that yaweh of the self looking out at the self with my ass on the sand

can i be the ocean with such waves?

i do miss the ocean

 

 

8.10.2017

Went -5 on 19.4 (LR) last night! Haven’t done that poorly on an LR section since my summer-diagnostic at the beginning of June! Woo! No one but myself to blame! Indicative of a complete lack of progress or simply an anomaly to which we should pay no attention?? Nothing else I want to say!